Just two months before starting the most difficult moment of my career, I asked my company for some time off to be able to assimilate the fact that I will not only be working, but also studying a master’s degree for two years, all in a language that I started to learn in earnest in July 2021.
There have been many times in my life when I have been afraid, but the difference in this one was that I also had doubts: should I really reduce my working hours in a job that pays well and that I like? Should I really pay almost 20,000 euros for this? If I want to devote myself to my field, why not just take one of the 4 jobs I have been offered this week?
With all these doubts, I packed my suitcase, went home, hugged my mother, took the dog for a walk, played with my sister, visited my former colleagues at ecovium and where I once had my own office I told them: I am thinking of spending two more years working seasonally, missing a job like the one I had here and the only reason for this is that I feel I have to go further, that a well paid job is not enough for me, I need the knowledge to really make a change wherever I go. … everyone understood, no one doubted this decision for a second and I knew that if they didn’t doubt, I wouldn’t either.
The answer was there, it was in the eyes of my mother, my grandparents, my former boss… I had even said it myself to a friend when he told me that his brother had died a few months ago and he saw no motivation to continue doing anything: do it for the source, not for the goal.
Do it because the fact of living implies carrying the responsibility of representing and fulfilling all those who put their efforts so that you could go as far as possible. Do it for every night your parents stayed up late, do it for the trust your partner has, do it for whoever you are thinking about right now. You have a duty to make those people proud with your deeds, you have a duty to lead the life they made possible, being the best version of you is the only way to pay them back, there never was any other way, there never will be.
